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Vegetarian or not? I really don't know anymore.

I used to be vegetarian before and it lasted a month (I actually got used to not eat meat besides fish) but my parents were making so big deal from it I needed to stop. The reason why I wanted to be vegetarian is that I wanted to have flat belly and because how people threat animals in factories (I was watching some documentary about it, it was some chicken factory or idk anymore).

Back to flat belly. Our Croatian blogger (Ella Dvornik, she's awesome) wrote and post picture of her bulked belly how it happens when she eat meat and some food. That excactly happens to me too and both of us have blood type A+ so I checked some comments and almost everyone with that blood group have same problems.

That's the reason why I want to be vegetarian again but this time, vegan. I'll eat only fish from meat but I don't think that's good for me because I already am taking pills for minerals and vitamins 'cause I almost don't have any (not even zink in blood).

OMG Anja, a lot of stuff you are doing isn't good for your health why would this be different? But seriously, I smoke, I'm starving myself and I used to self harm myself before why would this make any difference? I really don't like my body and I'm happy for those people who are very confident about themselves (either they have 40 or 140 kg) but I can't be. I just really can't.

I'm going to stop eating sweets and drink less coffee. Okay, maybe once a mont I'll buy myself burek or kebab just to reward myself lmao.

I have very sensitive skin. I don't use make up (only eyeliner and sometimes mascara) but still there are pimples because of sugar. I've tried once not to eat anything sweet and I did for a week, at the end of week someone gave me ONE little piece of chocolate, I woke up with A HORN near my mouth (the most usual places where I have pimples is forehead; okay now not that much and mostly on my chin and around mouth). Now I have a lot of pimples near my mouth 'cause it's Easter and all those cakes and cookies (no matter I'm atheist, my parents aren't and they made so many cookies I'm just absorbing them). I guess the good thing is that, when I ate something I go to toilet.

Okay, it's still morning and I'm still kinda sleepy (I'm actually tired 7/24) but I went to bed earlier last night; it was 1 AM, one hour earlier than usual :) That's big deal believe me. I'm obsessed with PoE now and my witch Eeveeline. I don't know does anyone else have or we're like the only one who have this tradition: before Easter, put some food in basket (basket can be any size and food like easter eggs, ham, etc etc) and go to church to bless it and you can't eat it 'till Easter? Yeah, that's tomorrow and my friend WHO KNOWS I'M ATHEIST is pushing me to go with her. Look, maybe I will but just because of her. I do literally anything to make her happy. I can't remember when was the last time I went there lmao. I remembered when I was a kid and I went with my neighbour and I lost my chocolate bunny on the way to church (great I know). -Not Easter related but whenever I went somewhere "with God" I lost something, last time (when I was 7th grade I think) I lost my phone. God took it probably but it was that old Samsung one, flip phone. Then last time I went to church when my parents persuaded me about 3 yrs ago, I accidentally hit my head on cross (talking about how I tripped myself and almost knocked over altar).

Yeah, good ol' days.

Okay, I need to go now, maybe I'll update something soon or later.

Ćao

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